7:25 AM Monday, April 30, 2007
gosh! I HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING!
somebody save me. its like around 15 hours then i will sit for my geog elective paper. minus away 8 hours of sleep, 1 hour of travelling to school, 1 hour to prepare myself for bed, 2 hours ~ 3 hours of dillidalying [no idea how u spell it ] and i'm left with 2 hours of studying! thats.. erm. okay, i shan't say anything. LOLS
my world is lonely. my life is boring. my days are filled with sadness. my table is messy. my eyes and brain are tired. my daily routine just SUCKS. i have NO LIFE AT ALL. NO LIFE, mind you.
give me a life, give me a break. give me someone to complain to, someone to scream or shout at when i'm so pissed, someone to cheer me on when i feel just so sick of life, someone to tell me life is not boring without him/her, someone to tell me i'm loved. this would at least take 10 people. however, nobody brings joy to me nowadays. maybe some of my girlfriends but well, they can't be there for me everytime i need them. THEY have their lives. THEY have their own stuffs to accomplish. what am I to them? nothing. zero. well, maybe 1% of their life, but, that doesn't satisfy. i will need at least 10 of those people to be satisfied.
i'm selfish huh. i want people to myself. i AM possessive. don't get near me.
i am so sick of everything happening now. i am so sick of exams, sick of teachers, sick of that nagging that's ringing beside my ear for like 24/7. i AM TIRED. i wish to sleep for eternity. NEVER TO WAKE UP. how can i make life more meaningful? TEACH ME PLEASE.
i scolded myself today again for saying the word 'fuck'. actually, its just a word, but, its swearing so i might as well just stop it. but i can't. whenever i get pissed, this damn word will just keep popping itself in my mind. what the hell is with my brain? i should go dig out all my brain cells someday. and spend my life in the mentally disabled centre. then perhaps life will be more fun.
just joking. who will ever want to go there. =.=
i hate it. i'm not gonna have any phone from the next month onwards. this simply sucks. i would just DIE without a phone for even a day. i guess i have to buy prepaid. but so many things are restricted in prepaid. that simply sucks.
damn. i spoilt my weighing machine just now. was too pissed that i jumped so hard on it that the spring broke. LOLS. so funny, and then now its stuck at 60kg. i stand on it its moves to only 65kg. i'm only 5kg! (:
okay, gonna start mugging. [ i think i won't even do it LOL ] really got to TRY. try HARD. gogo! lols. happy mugging to all people out there too. wish me LUCK. =.=
