7:16 PM Thursday, June 28, 2007
today is a mundane and suck-like-shit day. and so are the previous days and the upcoming few days. =.=
and why is that so? BECOS I DO NOT HAVE MY PHONE.
and why do i not have my phone? BECOS SOMEONE CONFISCATED IT.
and why did that someone confiscate it? BECOS WHOEVER KNOWS WHY.
whatever. like i care.
i spotted the beautiful sunset, although it was quite unclear, outside my window just now. but lazy to go get that digi cam to take the picture down.
i cant stop staring at you. yes you. who knows why. zzz.
and i guess i can't really do that, can i? =/
why do my friends not understand me? why does my one action lead to the understanding of another thing? why is it that i cannot express what i actually AM trying to convey? why are they given the wrong impression such that they must come to confront me about my 'wrong' attitude? u want to confront me, fine. confront yourself first. i am so sick and tired.
first, church. now, school. why do i have to put a false front whereever i go? where is that old emilyn?
but seriously, i do not miss that old emilyn. i do not even like the current emilyn. i wish this emilyn would just vanish and never appear again in front of me. i wish for her to go away so that i can have another emilyn.
why is life so hard? why is life so taxing? why is life filled with stupid activites such as going to school and attending stupid chinese lessons? can they cancel that chinese out of that curriculum? i would be gladly pleased.
Lord, grant me a friend. a friend that i can pour ALL my sorrows to. a friend that i can cry on. a friend that i can say 'today is a very happy day' to. and who is that friend? will that friend ever appear? i guess not. i suck. therefore suckers will not get friends. is that kind of true? may-be.
maybe not. who knows.
emo-ness again.
