8:10 AM Friday, August 24, 2007
okay. so yeah. life is boring as usual without jy. but my dearest jy will be back tmr! yippees! ((:
anw, i am really completely drained. be it physically or mentally. i wake up everyday to face the sickening fact that i have to go to school. and going to school means boredom.
and when do u feel boredom when going to school? when school serves no purpose. when you get upsetting marks for tests or exams. when you know u will feel uneasy when u see some people.
its not that i am selfish or unforgiving. but seriously i dont see any reason for owing you an apology. i believe you're the one that may be owing me an apology. but seriously, i have no cells and nerves to let myself be concerned with any of these anymore.
i dread tomorrow. tomorrow is election day. thats it. there is my fate. there goes emilyn. she is non-existent. i detest it. why didn't you give me a chance? if there is a chance, perhaps.. perhaps...
i'm happy enough to see the back view of you. although i know i can't have you, i know i still can see you for at least one more year. you're so tall and tanned. so muscular and cool. and you're not at all bad looking. how i yearn to stare into that face of yours. for at least 10 seconds. hahahah, why am i fantasysing....
sometimes i wonder. what can make me really happy. seeing happy people makes me happy, yeah! hahahs.
if you smile at me early in the morning, u know, those smiles that brightens up your day, i would probably be very happy all day long. erm, but it all depends on the previous day's sleep. if i didn't sleep well and u smiled, oh man, you're in deep shit...
LOL. JUST JOKING. XD
anyway, that was some self entertainment. xD
but yeah, nevertheless, it still works for me.. lols.
im not crazy, im not crazy.
indeed i am. (:
so long, people. back to the routine life i lead.
