6:04 AM Monday, November 05, 2007
had the sudden urge to blog in chinese, however, i don't have the software, so i guess, well. ):
i really really wish to scold someone now. after reading that someone's [which whom i will not reveal] blog, i feel like giving 'it' [let's name the person 'it' for the time being >< sorry!] a big tight slap on 'it''s face. why are u so overly confident about stuffs? why do you like to meddle with people's affairs so much? i know i know, i'm an awfully boring person. when i go out with you u show that solemn look of yours. when you're out with others, you laugh and smile like nobody's business.
whatever, i can't be bothered no more. suit yourself. i just know that its not me that cannot click with you, but rather you that cannot click with me.
since you are always as headstrong as usual, i can't do anything but stare at you from afar and see what obstacles you might face.
i will probably not laugh at your foolishness when u meet with some undesirable stuff, but well, i will definitely not offer a helping hand.
know why?
cos i know i will be rejected once again.
to prevent such things from happening, i must be wise enough not to let myself fall into such a STUPID trap. since you have so many people to help u, i think without me, u would be better off.
man. i am so pissed now i wish i could type in caps for everything.
I HATE YOU. I SERIOUSLY HATE U. WHAT DO U TREAT ME FOR. A USE-AND-THROW LIFE BUOYANT? I TREATED YOU AS LIKE WHAT, MY BESTIE, AND THIS IS THE TREATMENT I GET. WHY WHY WHY. WHY IS LIFE SO UNFAIR AND DEVASTATING FOR PEOPLE LIKE US. I DONT KNOW WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW. I CANT POSSIBLY IGNORE YOU FOR LIFE. AND WHEN I SAY HI TO U, U WOULD RATHER TALK TO OTHER PEOPLE. I FEEL SO SAD I COULD CRY.
U GET IT? NO. U DONT. YOU'VE GOT ONLY YOUR FRIENDS TO CARE. YOU CANT BE BOTHERED WITH ME. TO THINK I THOUGHT ALL ALONG THAT YOU CARED.
i am upset.. very upset.
i could think of us these till i cry.
to think i was so naive......
i think only one person will know who i am writing about. if you do, please keep it to yourself. thanks.
i am just venting my frustrations..
bye.
